Well I guess I should have added to my last entry – back in January (!) – blog more often.
I don’t really know where to start and if I keep using that as a reason not to, it’ll never happen, so here goes nothing.
Selection of pictures from my weekend adventure.
This weekend was, well, transformative for starters.
I took the weekend away, myself and a tent, to the woods. Scary biscuits, deep woods in the dead of night alone, but so very, very worth it. It was emotional (I’ve been feeling very weary/run down, so I needed some emotional time out), mental (I needed to clear my head and gather my thoughts away from the clutter of everyday life) and spiritual (on my shamanic path, I’ve been called to ‘vision quest’ for awhile now and knew that it would take some organising for me to feel the freedom to do so, hence…
I journeyed and settled intermittently on the first day, walking, exhaling, slowly letting go of the outside world and attuning to the place and to me, finally just breathing and being, by this morning.
I spent today on a personal vision quest, a good several hours in fact. Surprised even me. Especially the words that came tumbling out calmly, almost sedately, when my guides did their, well, guiding thing. So much released. So much let go. So much called upon and drawn in. Expelling, expressing, singing, howling, you name it. Performed a ritual with fire, burning words written almost in automatic writing, after reading and truly digested every word fully, first. Powerful stuff. Even stood naked under the moon.. but shush, don’t tell anyone. ~grin~
So much good to come, so much work to be done. I’m only just now, hours later, finally beginning to settle it all inside. I feel me. I found me again. I forgave them all, last but not least, me. I found love for them all, grace, understanding, compassion, and last but not least, me. I understood so many things that I hadn’t before, or only thought I had.
Bloody hell that was powerful stuff. ~grins~
I hope you enjoyed my first blog entry since the start of the year. Now I’ve started…